Monthly Archives: August 2010

On greener grass, and growing up

I’m in Santa Barbara, staying with the one college friend who still lives up here, Anabella, and her family.  When I first met her, Anabella was a college freshman, and her daughter Elena was nine months old.  To give my … Continue reading

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Craziness: another good reason to wait

A few nights ago, I had a dream that I was pregnant. I don’t have these dreams often enough to label them as recurring and add them to my list of PTSD symptoms, although I do occasionally have dreams wherein … Continue reading

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Forgiveness

A few years ago, I happened to be staying at a hotel in Los Angeles during the weekend of the Conscious Life Expo (which is exactly what it sounds like).  In the elevator on the way up to my room, … Continue reading

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Pandora

On bad days, or more often nights, lying in bed unable to sleep, I climb down into the darkest corners of my soul, where I hide in an over-stuffed closet and remind myself that I’m a failure at life and … Continue reading

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Egg Alert

On the cover of the July 2010 issue of Marie Claire magazine is the headline, “Take Control of Your Sex Life.”  It caught my attention the other day as I was sitting in the breakroom at work, looking at some … Continue reading

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Background check

I thought it might be appropriate, since I spend so much time obsessing over my mental health, to make sure my body is sound before I get too far into this project.  My therapist seemed to think the same thing, as … Continue reading

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To be supported

In therapy yesterday afternoon, I recounted the last three days’ diatribe on the social stigmas of opening up in public, and how grief can serve as a powerful medium, allowing us to connect with other humans.  And the conclusion that … Continue reading

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