Monthly Archives: March 2011

Pregnancy and loss (but not pregnancy loss)

So, to finally get to the point of my post yesterday, which was about me being a friend-collector and never wanting to say goodbye to or grow apart from anyone…  Somewhere along this road, I made pregnancy synonymous with friendship … Continue reading

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Hate to see you go, but…

Apparently, I’m not very good at goodbyes.  This is apropos of nothing immediate, just something that came up in therapy yesterday, when I was trying to explain how I feel guilty or remorseful about making plans with friends during time I … Continue reading

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Something a little more comfortable

This afternoon, after the zoo, after lunch, after my therapy appointment, Doug and I picked up his sisters from school and went to his mom’s house for dinner.  Not wanting to sit around on Doug’s mom’s couch after I’d just spent an … Continue reading

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Singularly focused

My heart isn’t in this tonight. Doug and I got into a pseudo-argument this afternoon, because I feel like all his energy goes into his bike: it seems like that’s all he thinks about, talks about, worries about, and wants to … Continue reading

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Impulse control

I’m sitting at my mom’s “desk” (kitchen table), typing on her laptop.  I’m exhausted: last night’s poetic elegance has all been washed away as a result of going to bed at midnight and waking up at…  5:11 a.m., eleven minutes … Continue reading

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About face

I first met my esthetician/friend Tara when I was a few months shy of getting married, and she was working out of a pretty little spa room in my gym.  As a bride, at the time I thought it was … Continue reading

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All the things to whine about

Yesterday, I reminded myself of all the things I could do to make my weekend of night shifts feel less like torture.  Then I mentioned that I would probably forget them all by today.  Prophesy: fulfilled. This morning started off … Continue reading

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