Category Archives: negative thinking


Today in therapy, we were supposed to talk about the impending end of this project, how I feel about it, what it means, what happens next.  Instead, I came in with a migraine (which I still have, five hours later) … Continue reading

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Pregnancy and loss (but not pregnancy loss)

So, to finally get to the point of my post yesterday, which was about me being a friend-collector and never wanting to say goodbye to or grow apart from anyone…  Somewhere along this road, I made pregnancy synonymous with friendship … Continue reading

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Singularly focused

My heart isn’t in this tonight. Doug and I got into a pseudo-argument this afternoon, because I feel like all his energy goes into his bike: it seems like that’s all he thinks about, talks about, worries about, and wants to … Continue reading

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Impulse control

I’m sitting at my mom’s “desk” (kitchen table), typing on her laptop.  I’m exhausted: last night’s poetic elegance has all been washed away as a result of going to bed at midnight and waking up at…  5:11 a.m., eleven minutes … Continue reading

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All the things to whine about

Yesterday, I reminded myself of all the things I could do to make my weekend of night shifts feel less like torture.  Then I mentioned that I would probably forget them all by today.  Prophesy: fulfilled. This morning started off … Continue reading

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[Teefies (n): A play-word for teeth, used by Doug’s aunts with their children, as in, “Go brush your teefies and get ready for bed.”  In spite of my general dislike for baby-talk, this has become a regularly used word in our household … Continue reading

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Tantrum Mode

Okay, I admit it.  I’m 28 years old, and I still throw tantrums, on my bike, and in life.  I throw tantrums because I like to feel like I’m in control of things and I like to feel like I’m … Continue reading

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