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Monthly Archives: November 2010
Commitment-phobic, a continuation
Doug is watching Happy Feet. We’re supposed to be cutting our cable – actually, we were supposed to do it weeks ago – in order to be able to afford another year’s worth of Disneyland passes. We also realized that … Continue reading
Posted in future, marriage, negative thinking
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Screw the question, just pop my bubble
The other night, Doug asked me to make him a Christmas list. There’s not a lot of material things I want right now, but I tried to think of things I wouldn’t be able to justify buying for myself: cozy … Continue reading
Posted in future, marriage, Uncategorized
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Reunion #2: Stephanie
It was a weekend of ten-year reunions. My senior year in high school, I met and made friends with a sophomore from a different school. Stephanie was tiny, blonde, and naïve. She had a high-pitched voice and was incredibly physically … Continue reading
Posted in friends, marriage, past, perspective
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Reunion #1: high school
Oh, man, the high school reunion. I had built this thing up in my mind, thinking people were going to judge me for not having a husband or babies or a high-powered career. I had insisted to everyone, even to … Continue reading
Posted in friends, perspective, present
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Self-imposed sex therapy, part two
When it comes to sex, I told my therapist, I feel tied up, shut down, closed off. For a while there, after the miscarriage, I’d been unable to enjoy sex at all. I would tell myself to do it, tell … Continue reading
Posted in sex or lack thereof, therapy
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Happy Thanksgiving
I have so many beautiful memories of this day. For my “first Thanksgiving,” when I was living in France, I cooked the traditional meal from scratch – including the turkey – using only a two-burner electric hotplate and a convection … Continue reading
Posted in family, friends, love, positive thinking
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Self-imposed sex therapy, part one
I kept my word: yesterday afternoon, when my therapist asked me what I wanted to talk about, I told her I wanted to talk about sex. I explained everything I’ve explained here: my feelings about sex, my reactions to it … Continue reading
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Purpose
This afternoon, while I was at therapy and getting my hair cut (more about the former at a later date), Doug rearranged some things in the house. Instead of having two large rabbit cages in the middle of the living … Continue reading
Posted in love, negative thinking
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Waxing philosophical
I’m going to be doing some pampering over the next few days, in preparation for the holiday and the reunion taking place the following night. I don’t have the money to be running around getting pampered, but I’m doing it … Continue reading
Posted in sex or lack thereof
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Writing, two stories
Last week, my therapist complimented me on my writing, then asked me, “Do you want to write a novel? What is it, exactly, that you want to do?” “You know, it’s funny,” I told her. “When I was a kid … Continue reading
Posted in present, therapy, writing
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Bakery Closed Until Further Notice 