Monthly Archives: April 2011

Understanding and acceptance

If things had worked out differently, my baby would be two today. Incidentally, my maternal grandfather would be 98 today.  I never met him, either. But things didn’t work out differently.  I lost that pregnancy on account of a blighted … Continue reading

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“Dear Journal… Hi, it’s me Doug…..”

(Ten points to anyone who can name that cartoon!) This blog project ends in 24 hours.  My girlfriend has spent nine months sitting in front of a computer everyday, expressing thoughts, feelings, and insights about a time that wasn’t wanted, … Continue reading

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I set this thing up, from its very conception (note the word choice) to be a gestation.  I gave it an eight-and-a-half-month timeline, with a clear date of when I could expect it to be over.  As I’ve mentioned before, … Continue reading

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This week will be the second time in my life I’ve done some kind of a body cleansing/detox program. The first time was a few weeks after my D&C, because the pregnancy hormones in my body had thrown my whole … Continue reading

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To answer your question…

In honor of April being National Infertility Awareness Month, I thought I might attempt to answer the one question I’m being asked a lot lately… Q: You know you’re not infertile, right?! A: Yes, I do know that.  However… I … Continue reading

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Today in therapy, we were supposed to talk about the impending end of this project, how I feel about it, what it means, what happens next.  Instead, I came in with a migraine (which I still have, five hours later) … Continue reading

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A week after I started this blog, I went to Disneyland with Dawn and her family.  Yesterday, a week before I’ll be ending this blog, I went to Disneyland with Dawn and her family. This may not seem that special, … Continue reading

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